1153: Illumination by Natasha Trethewey
1153: Illumination by Natasha Trethewey
Transcript
I’m Major Jackson, and this is The Slowdown.
After four years of a commuter marriage, my wife and I decided it was time to live under one roof — no more semiweekly flights or separate household expenses. We amicably settled on matters like which sofas to keep and whose Netflix account to close. And then, a full-blown argument arose over . . . books. What to do with our books?
She wanted to combine our libraries. Oh, no, no, no! I wanted separate shelves in respective offices. My reason? She desecrates books! She demolishes them. She underlines. She circles. She slashes. Her marginalia looks like a mind in gladiatorial combat. When I stumble upon her reading in our home, I silently cringe, then back out of the room, alarmed at her pen raised like a weapon. First editions, rare editions, she has no guilt, no remorse.
I, on the other hand, keep books behind glass display cases and protectively wrapped dust jackets, tied with cotton twill ribbons. One year, I searched online for the proper gloves to use when handling books. Turns out dry, clean hands are best.
I believe books are sacred, thanks to my family’s strong emphasis on literacy as a means of social ascension. And back in high school, a handed-down textbook, say, Shakespeare’s Romeo & Juliet or Shelly’s Frankenstein, usually contained a decade’s worth of teenage jokes and scribblings. I cherished new copies of textbooks. I took notes in black composition notebooks, not on those pristine pages. Used bookstores are a challenge for me.
I am a quiet, pensive reader. Didi is a physical reader, and tells me that marking a book is a way of remembering, a way to be in dialogue, a way of doing more than passively absorbing ideas, but a way of owning them.
Today’s elegant poem reads like a manifesto for those who rigorously annotate. For those who know that marking a book renders visible silent conversations.
Illumination
by Natasha Trethewey
Always there is something more to know what lingers at the edge of thought awaiting illumination as in this secondhand book full of annotations daring the margins in pencil a light stroke as if the writer of these small replies meant not to leave them forever meant to erase evidence of this private interaction Here a passage underlined there a single star on the page as in a night sky cloud-swept and hazy where only the brightest appears a tiny spark I follow its coded message try to read in it the direction of the solitary mind that thought to pencil in a jagged arrow It is a bolt of lightning where it strikes I read the line over and over as if I might discern the little fires set the flames of an idea licking the page how knowledge burns Beyond the exclamation point its thin agreement angle of surprise there are questions the word why So much is left untold Between the printed words and the self-conscious scrawl between what is said and not white space framing the story the way the past unwritten eludes us So much is implication the afterimage of measured syntax always there ghosting the margins that words their black-lined authority do not cross Even as they rise up to meet us the white page hovers beneath silent incendiary waiting
"Illumination" by Natasha Trethewey from MONUMENT © 2018 Natasha Trethewey. Used by permission of HarperCollins Publishers.