762: Home is still possible there…
762: Home is still possible there…
Transcript
I’m Ada Limón and this is The Slowdown.
If you’ve listened to the show before you’ve probably heard me talk about my exchange sister in Ukraine from thirty years ago. Valya. We finally reconnected when she emailed me out of the blue through my website and now we email a couple times a week. She tells me of her life in Kiev and I try my best to sound supportive and offer some semblance of normalcy. She’s living in the midst of war and all the horrors that entails. And somehow she manages to sound hopeful, to sound strong.
Lately, her emails have been making me cry and worry. How much can one person take, how much can a people take? I think of our days together walking by the river. How young we were, how fresh-faced and ready for the world. And this is the world we were given. And yet Valya is still Valya, warm and kind and tough as nails.
Today’s poem explores what it is to be living in the shadow of war and how history’s rage can permeate a landscape.
Home is still possible there…
by Kateryna Kalytko, translated from the Ukrainian by Olena Jennings and Oksana Lutsyshyna
Home is still possible there, where they hang laundry out to dry, and the bed sheets smell of wind and plum blossoms. It is the season of the first intimacy to be consummated, never to be repeated. Every leaf emerges as a green blade and the cries of life take over the night and find a rhythm. Fragile tinfoil of the season when apricots first form along with wars and infants, in the same spoonful of air, in the stifling bedrooms or in the cold, from which the wandering beg to enter, like a bloom of jellyfish, or migratory blossoms. The April frost hunts white-eyed, sharp-clawed, but the babies have the same fuzzy skin for protection. What makes them different is how they break when the time comes for them to fall, or if they get totally crushed. Behind the wall a drunken one-armed neighbor stumbles around his house, confusing all the epochs, his shoulder bumps into metal crutches from WWI, a Soviet helmet made of cardboard, and the portrait of a man with a glance like a machine gun firing and hangers for shirts, all of them with a single sleeve. So they will fall and break into pieces and fates branches parted, fruit exposed to the winds. The neck feels squeezed, in the narrow isthmus of the throat time just stands still and mustard gas creeps through the ditches. All of this is but a forgotten game we play in the family backyard, hiding amongst the laundry that hangs outside the world becomes more fragile at each moment, and when you suddenly embrace through the cloth – you don’t know who it is, and whether you’ve lost or found. And the swelling parted body of war intrudes into a blossoming heart because we didn’t let it enter our home on a cold night to warm itself.
"Home is still possible there..." by Kateryna Kalytko, translated from the Ukrainian by Olena Jennings and Oksana Lutsyshyna. Used by permission of the translators.