731: no name in the street
731: no name in the street
Transcript
I’m Nate Marshall and this is The Slowdown.
I come from a nicknaming people. There are people I’ve known virtually my entire life who I could not look up by their legal name. Some of those people are related to me and some are so close they may as well be. Growing up, sometimes this would cause little moments of trouble.
I might have asked to go over to a neighborhood friend’s house but not know their last name or any of the necessary particulars. You might have gotten your bike ridden away by a bigger kid and when asked his name you didn’t realize until that moment that whatever you called him was obviously an absurd invention of youthful self-creation.
Even my own name, though common, is a nickname of sorts. My given name is Nathaniel, pronounced by my mother as Nay-thaniel. Nate is one of those names that got applied to me in the casual moments of adolescence and stuck so thoroughly it became the name under which I publish and often introduce myself. Still, most of my family and my oldest or closest friends call me Nathaniel, and I admit, I like it. Nate is who you all know. Nathaniel is maybe someone more insular.
Today’s poem takes that alchemy of renaming and considers it from multiple moments of vulnerability.
n̶o̶ ̶n̶a̶m̶e̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶s̶t̶r̶e̶e̶t̶
by Aurielle Marie
they called him Money & he had none. ion even gotta tell you how funny that aint. they called him June mint or, that June, he tasted of pepper. i forget. i remember they called his hands to the front the smoke was thick & the bullets carved— no. he had a name. i think it was dark & my mouth let out a sound & suddenly there he was. grinning over the sound of artillery & bruise-laughter. you rang? & i never asked for help but i ended up saved. anyway someone told me he died casually. like the world swallowed his noise & gave us the broth to recall him by. i laid with him & never told no one. never called him nothing but a cool blush of smoke. he asked me to gift him a way out, a name to be welcomed home inside & i couldn’t offer anything up, not even all me. anyway. someone told me he died casually. i called him up & ask is it true? he say something bout there being no war in the blues. he aint answer my question. directly after, the whole room got to smelling like pepper. like June. gun powder in a Ferguson sky. & i be damned. there aint no word to call this what it is
"n̶o̶ ̶n̶a̶m̶e̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶s̶t̶r̶e̶e̶t̶" from GUMBO YA YA by Aurielle Marie, © 2021. All rights are controlled by the University of Pittsburgh Press, Pittsburgh, PA 15260. Used by permission of the University of Pittsburgh Press.