October 30, 2020
505: You Are Who I Love
October 30, 2020
505: You Are Who I Love
You Are Who I Love
by Aracelis Girmay
You Are Who I Love by Aracelis Girmay You, selling roses out of a silver grocery cart You, in the park, feeding the pigeons You cheering for the bees You with cats in your voice in the morning, feeding cats You protecting the river You are who I love delivering babies, nursing the sick You with henna on your feet and a gold star in your nose You taking your medicine, reading the magazines You looking into the faces of young people as they pass, smiling and saying, Alright! which, they know it, means I see you, Family. I love you. Keep on. You dancing in the kitchen, on the sidewalk, in the subway waiting for the train because Stevie Wonder, Héctor Lavoe, La Lupe You stirring the pot of beans, you, washing your father’s feet You are who I love, you reciting Darwish, then June Feeding your heart, teaching your parents how to do The Dougie, counting to 10, reading your patients’ charts You are who I love, changing policies, standing in line for water, stocking the food pantries, making a meal You are who I love, writing letters, calling the senators, you who, with the seconds of your body (with your time here), arrive on buses, on trains, in cars, by foot to stand in the January streets against the cool and brutal offices, saying: YOUR CRUELTY DOES NOT SPEAK FOR ME You are who I love, you struggling to see You struggling to love or find a question You better than me, you kinder and so blistering with anger, you are who I love, standing in the wind, salvaging the umbrellas, graduating from school, wearing holes in your shoes You are who I love weeping or touching the faces of the weeping You, Violeta Parra, grateful for the alphabet, for sound, singing toward us in the dream You carrying your brother home You noticing the butterflies Sharing your water, sharing your potatoes and greens You who did and did not survive You who cleaned the kitchens You who built the railroad tracks and roads You who replanted the trees, listening to the work of squirrels and birds, you are who I love You whose blood was taken, whose hands and lives were taken, with or without your saying Yes, I mean to give. You are who I love. You who the borders crossed You whose fires You decent with rage, so in love with the earth You writing poems alongside children You cactus, water, sparrow, crow You, my elder You are who I love, summoning the courage, making the cobbler, getting the blood drawn, sharing the difficult news, you always planting the marigolds, learning to walk wherever you are, learning to read wherever you are, you baking the bread, you come to me in dreams, you kissing the faces of your dead wherever you are, speaking to your children in your mother’s languages, tootsing the birds You are who I love, behind the library desk, leaving who might kill you, crying with the love songs, polishing your shoes, lighting the candles, getting through the first day despite the whisperers sniping fail fail fail You are who I love, you who beat and did not beat the odds, you who knows that any good thing you have is the result of someone else’s sacrifice, work, you who fights for reparations You are who I love, you who stands at the courthouse with the sign that reads NO JUSTICE, NO PEACE You are who I love, singing Leonard Cohen to the snow, you with glitter on your face, wearing a kilt and violet lipstick You are who I love, sighing in your sleep You, playing drums in the procession, you feeding the chickens and humming as you hem the skirt, you sharpening the pencil, you writing the poem about the loneliness of the astronaut You wanting to listen, you trying to be so still You are who I love, mothering the dogs, standing with horses You in brightness and in darkness, throwing your head back as you laugh, kissing your hand You carrying the berbere from the mill, and the jug of oil pressed from the olives of the trees you belong to You studying stars, you are who I love braiding your child’s hair You are who I love, crossing the desert and trying to cross the desert You are who I love, working the shifts to buy books, rice, tomatoes, bathing your children as you listen to the lecture, heating the kitchen with the oven, up early, up late You are who I love, learning English, learning Spanish, drawing flowers on your hand with a ballpoint pen, taking the bus home You are who I love, speaking plainly about your pain, sucking your teeth at the airport terminal television every time the politicians say something that offends your sense of decency, of thought, which is often You are who I love, throwing your hands up in agony or disbelief, shaking your head, arguing back, out loud or inside of yourself, holding close your incredulity which, yes, too, I love I love your working heart, how each of its gestures, tiny or big, stand beside my own agony, building a forest there How “Fuck you” becomes a love song You are who I love, carrying the signs, packing the lunches, with the rain on your face You at the edges and shores, in the rooms of quiet, in the rooms of shouting, in the airport terminal, at the bus depot saying “No!” and each of us looking out from the gorgeous unlikelihood of our lives at all, finding ourselves here, witnesses to each other’s tenderness, which, this moment, is fury, is rage, which, this moment, is another way of saying: You are who I love You are who I love You and you and you are who
"You Are Who I Love" by Aracelis Girmay. Used by permission of the poet.