July 9, 2020
424: A Mother's Mouth Illuminated
July 9, 2020
424: A Mother's Mouth Illuminated
A Mother’s Mouth Illuminated
by Threa Almontaser
PBS taught us English: Sesame Street, Between the Lions, Mr. Rogers. We passed each learned word between one another— an umbilical cord of lessons connecting us to our new terrain. When our mom probed us for words, we shrugged her off, You don’t need it. Dishcloth clenched in her fist, she huffed, No matter how high the hawk flies, it’s never too late to turn back to the tree. This is likely a mistranslation. She bled open book spines with her teeth. Arrowed her mouth to the Reading Rainbow channel. Rerouted herself to a place with less mourning, more light. One evening, she practiced her halting English on our dad. He stopped her with a hand, unable to grasp the gibberish, her eager words tinged with the kinky thickness of a borrowed speech. Just leave the English to me, he said. The rats north of 140th street were making him cruel. We insisted, Don’t worry about it. A woman in the house all day, you won’t need it. It’s true she was sequestered on the top floor of our apartment, spent her days cooking and cleaning, lucky to get a call card and phone her family back home. What friends did she have other than us? We were fitting in ourselves, had no time to be the companion of a lonely adult who used to think herself fluent, tongue dined with five-star speeches. From then on, she kept to herself. Didn’t utter a single word in any language until our dad left to work at a chicken market in the Bronx, when she fled into the screen. Into the hood where muppets lived. Then she plugged in her belly-string and feasted, her whispers desperate for the words, for the strange lions and big yellow bird, trying to illuminate their meanings.
"A Mother's Mouth Illuminated," by Threa Almontaser. Used by permission of the poet.