May 27, 2020
393: Song In Which We Yet Sidestep Disaster
May 27, 2020
393: Song In Which We Yet Sidestep Disaster
Song In Which We Yet Sidestep Disaster
by Tess Taylor
For Taylor
Even stars are formed by loss. You know
astronomers believe that galaxies are forged
out of huge collapsing stars—
hollow, imploding on themselves.
As stars die the very charge
of their collapse sets matter loose:
This lost energy becomes a splatter
of elemental goo spinning in space.
If this is hard to see, think of a tub,
the one our kids play in each night.
When it drains, the energy that’s lost
in gravity’s huge suck is turned to sound. Sound:
what lost force becomes. Sound:
the gurgle left behind by entropy.
Think: Collapsing stars
forging a galactic paint
of elements & energy;
nickel; copper; iron; ore
of which each new world is made.
Our life is splattered star.
Or, my love, we’re spun of losses.
Is this why
we sit up on the shore
& hear the ocean smash the rocks?
The air rings with lost force we call the waves.
Ten years ago I gave my life to you,
& lost some of the life I had before.
We marked promises & gave
each other mined-up core
to wear a while, minted now as rings.
Guise of permanence, to enclose a life.
I also know that when I write tonight
I only chase the pattern that I hear.
Something I meant spins farther off.
And: You didn’t die that awful year.
I haven’t lost you yet.
My love, I count the lucky stars.
I lie, rocking on your breath.
"Song In Which We Yet Sidestep Disaster," by Tess Taylor, from RIFT ZONE by Tess Taylor, copyright © 2020 Red Hen Press. Used by permission of Red Hen Press.